Sunday, November 30, 2008

Give Thanks With a Grateful Heart

Perhaps I should name this "TRADITIOOOOOON! Tradition!" (a song from Fiddler on the Roof). I am a sucker for tradition. If I haven't made it clear yet, change is very hard for me. This year was the first year I have EVER been away from my parents for my birthday and Thanksgiving. Everything went well and I had a good time being with friends. But, as much as we say friends are like family (and some definitely seem that way), there is nothing like those people who have lived with me my whole life and know all about my previous inability to pronounce my Rs, my dreaded fear of "being sent to the facilities" (I thought facilities meant jail), and the awesome stuffed animal kickball games my brother and I played (the stuffed animals were the players, not the ball!!).

My family has always had a lot of traditions at Thanksgiving. Mommy cooks up a storm and I help. I usually get excused to watch the Macy's Parade and yell for Mommy to come when a song from a Broadway show is about to start. After the parade, Grandpa Smith usually carves the turkey. I make sure the table is set and that everyone's place card is present and vertical (some of them were made by my brothers when they were in elementary school, so they aren't in the greatest shape). We have our amazing meal of turkey, mashed potatoes, gravy, squash, creamy onions, stuffing, homemade oatmeal molasses rolls with homemade cranberry-orange relish, etc. It is a classic New England Thanksgiving dinner. It is beautiful and pretty much the most delicious meal of the year.

Before we dig into the Libby's pumpkin pie and homemade special apple-cranberry pie we go through our Thanksgiving rites. Someone reads through the official proclamation of Thanksgiving as a National Holiday. We recite Psalm 100 together. Then, Mommy goes through our Thanksgiving vocabulary word scramble. There are pieces of paper that each have one word on them; for example, "taptoo." The first person to say "potato" gets the paper and whoever has the most at the end wins. We've done this so many times I have them all memorized and have to have a 5 second handicap. Next, my brothers and I are obligated to sing "We hunt buffalo," a cute (but now politically incorrect) song my oldest brother learned in kindergarten or 1st grade about Native Americans. We perform this ritual by wearing ancient grocery bags that we decorated when we were wee children, wearing dyed noodle necklaces and beating old oatmeal containers that have been decorated and converted into authentic looking drums. We do the motions too. It is quite a sight that you should probably never see unless you are prepared to learn the motions, make your own grocery bag, necklace and drum and sing along. Next tradition-my 2nd favorite. We use the alphabet as a tool to say what we're thankful for. Let's say Mommy starts, so she says something that starts with A. Apples. I'm next to her so I get B. I may say I'm thankful for brothers and the beach. Zach is next to me, so he gets C. He says he's thankful for Carrie and chocolate, etc, etc, etc. This is a really fun way to say what we're thankful for without dragging on until midnight or collapsing from too much turkey consumption. The final, and my favorite tradition is listening to part of a cassette tape that my Mom's younger siblings sent to her the first Thanksgiving she was away from home. We listen to a "sermon" by Sister Suzy (my Aunt Nancy). She preaches on "Thou Shalt Not Kill Thy Turkey" and it is the most hilarious thing I have ever heard IN MY LIFE!!!! Not only is she funny, but my uncle is making innocent turkey noises in the background and the whole thing is just so ridiculous I almost bust a gut just thinking about it!

After all that, we eat our hard-earned pie. I whip the cream - and get to lick a beater when I'm done. Then we usually go for a walk and just have a nice, relaxing afternoon. Mommy picks over the turkey, freezes some and makes the rest into soup that will feed us for the next 3 nights.

Now you might be able to understand better why it was so weird for me to spend Thanksgiving in Ohio with someone who has only known me for just over 3 years and her family. I had fun, and the turkey was great, but as my cousin pointed out, it's a lot harder to impose your traditions on others when you're not hosting. I made it through, though. I got choked up when the Macy's parade started and a couple other times over the course of the day. But, I felt very welcome at Keegan's house and her family was incredibly kind to me. My parents called that night and we talked about our day and I sang "We Hunt Buffalo" for Mommy. So everything turned out ok. The world is still turning and I remain truly thankful for all the things God has given me.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

My Birthday! .... and the "Evangelist"

Yesterday was unlike any birthday I have ever had. It was the first time I have ever been away from my parents on my birthday. You might think, "You just turned 22 Carrie, grow up!" But, my birthday has always been an extra-special time for me. Not only is it time to eat the uniquely decorated cake that Mommy makes with my porcelain clown candles in front of it, have my nose buttered and open presents, but it is also time to be with family and rejoice in the life that God has given me. My birthday always falls in Thanksgiving week and my family used to always host Thanksgiving, so I'm used to a lot of attention (and if you know me at all, you know how I love that!!).
I did get a lot of attention yesterday, it was all just from afar. I got oodles of Happy Birthdays on my facebook wall and had "Happy Birthday" sung to me in English, German, 2 versions in Spanish, and English with a HEAVY Spanish accent. It was great. I got several phone calls and had fun getting the chance to brainstorm and decorate my cake. (Mommy always does it in secret and reveals it when she walks in the dining room with the light dimmed and the candles lit.)
It was still really, really weird to not be with my parents. I missed them a lot. But, it wasn't the painful missing I had last week when I almost bought plane tickets to Arizona. I was content with how the day worked out (and accepted that I just had to make the most of things because that's how they were going to be).
I think it's just part of this whole transitioning thing. I am not a big fan of change, but that's all that seems to happen in my life. I am so grateful though that I can always turn to God, my ROCK who never changes.
I think things will be different when I am in Costa Rica. I think of birthday and Thanksgiving in the US away from my family and get sad. I think of birthday and Thanksgiving in Costa Rica and feel no loss. I guess we'll see how things will really be. Hopefully by this time next year I'll be in Costa Rica (and will have been for many, many months) and I'll do my best to reflect on these things once more and see how my perspective has changed.


Slightly changing the subject-Today I read the latest edition of the "Evangelist", the quarterly magazine put out by the Latin America Mission. It was heartbreaking to read some things, and exciting to read others. It's fun to recognize some people's names and pictures in there (I'm on the back inside cover-contact the LAM if you want a copy) and it just gets me PUMPED to go and serve in Costa Rica. This is not so my name can be mentioned in a magazine, but because I am thrilled to be a part of what God is doing in Latin America!! May God get me there quickly!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Mulling over Missions

I was invited to a missionary retreat yesterday because there were a whole bunch of missionaries there from the Latin America Mission-including a family that is moving to the same province as me!!! How good it is to know they won't be very far away! And of course, they are already offering me hospitality and they won't even get to Costa Rica until February. I love a functioning Body of Christ!!

Being with a whole bunch of missionaries got me thinking about missions stuff again. In a recent post one of my indirect points was that missionaries are normal people too. We all should be "missionaries" so it only makes sense that they are all people just like everyone else. I have been learning this lesson. The missionary couple that was at my LAM orientation in June like to play a fun game called Wizard. My aunt and uncle who are missionaries like to have a pet dog. And, like all other people, missionaries have baggage. They get depressed, their marriages fall on the rocks, their kids get sick, and like everyone else, their past influences the way they live in the present. I say this not to make missionaries look bad, but to make the point that they are not superChristians. We all have our weaknesses. Troubles come. Life happens.

I think on the mission field there is an extra challenge because missionaries are often isolated and can't always get the help they need right away. But, the LAM has a good member care program, so that is comforting. And, God is always at work in the midst of trouble, and that is even more comforting. He has a plan for everything and will never leave us. Praise His Name!!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

A Lifetime's Not Too Long to Live as Friends

I once heard someone describe how friendships were built in terms of time. There's quantity time and there's quality time. Quantity time is all those times you see someone in the grocery store, or always sitting by someone in church or class or the groups of people you eat with regularly. It is not necessarily a lot of time all at once, and the conversation isn't particularly deep. Sometimes there isn't much room or time for conversation, but it is time shared together, often with high frequency, and this builds the relationship. The more time we spend with people, the more we get to know them and the more comfortable we feel around them. So, eventually the times comes when we can open up and share more of ourselves with one another. We have gained one another's trust and can say "not so good" when someone asks us how we are and share why. We can talk about our struggles and the things that really bother us. This is quality time. Once there is a good base of quantity, it is much easier to have quality. Instead of having to make small talk there can be soul talk, and without much preface.
The trueness of this is hitting me again. I'm in Massachusetts this weekend to pick up the car a couple of my college friends are giving me. I've seen them about 5 times since they graduated in 2006. But, we spent a lot of time together when we were all at school. We went to church together, ate together, went to InterVarsity together, hung out together on the weekends, ran into each other in the halls and just built up a lot of quantity time with one another. Now, we are reaping the quality time from the quantity that we sowed. Even though I don't see Brian & Jackie very often, we can immediately dive in to good, deep conversation. The same goes for Brenda, Mollie, Rach and a few other people that graduated before me. I know I can never go back to college life and I will never have the same quantity time I had with my friends before. But it's ok. We are able to make the best of the time we have with each other.
What a blessing that is!! I feel this is true for me especially since my life has been so transient. I only spent one of the last 4 summers living with my parents. I spent the last 2 summers in Grand Teton National Park in Wyoming, but there was a different set of employees working there. So, each summer I met new people and tried to make new friends and build strong relationships. However, a summer is only so long. By the time I built up enough quantity time with people and felt like I was really starting to know them, the summer ended and I had to go back to school. I think that's a big reason why I am living in Grove City right now. It has been the place where I have spent the most time and built the strongest relationships. So, of course I want to be there! (I think my parents moving twice over the course of my college career is a factor as well.) But, I'm happy where I am. God is really helping me to be content. My prayers (and the prayers of others) for patience in waiting to go to Costa Rica are being answered. Thanks be to God!
I just want to make one more note about the quantity-quality thing. I don't think a relationship HAS to have a lot of quantity time before the quality time can start. There are several occasions on which I have just felt a bond to someone. We didn't have to really spend any time together at all before we had a quality relationship. And, just because I spend a lot of time with someone doesn't guarantee we will become close friends. But, it does increase the chances.
I'm so grateful God has blessed me with so many friendships!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Be a Missionary Every Day! (clap clap clap clap)...

I am finding that the word "missionary" comes with a lot of baggage. Literally and figuratively. ;-) It seems like being pregnant, all of a sudden one becomes public property and people will give all sorts of "advice" whether or not they have actually been pregnant themselves. I do appreciate the advice though, for sure. I know I have a lot of learn about missions and I am grateful for all the counsel given to me. However, becoming an "official missionary" has given me a lot to think about, even without talking to others.
Seth, one of my amazing junior high youth leaders once told me that he tried to live like a missionary all the time. I have never forgotten that, and I think he hit the nail on the head. Missionary should be a lifestyle, NOT a job title. We are clearly not all gifted as evangelists (not even all missionaries are), but we have the Truth, the Good News, which is salvation to every man. We are to be known that we are Christians for our love. As someone who is in love with Christ, I want to love Him more every day and I want to love others as He has loved me. Through this others can know I love them because God loves me and has given me the grace to love them as He loves me. And, by the work of the Holy Spirit people will come to know God personally. It's being a missionary.
So, whether we are called to stay or go, we are called to live out the gospel wherever we are; to let the Lord reign in our hearts and lives and be obedient to Him. It's kind of like all those who aren't working officially with a ministry are tentmakers-missionaries who have a "real job" but use it as their ministry. We are all in this together, the Family, the BODY of Christ. "May we be brought to complete unity to let the world know that You sent Jesus and have loved us even as You have loved Him." John 17:23

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

One of the BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE!!!

Yesterday was absolutely A-MAZ-ING for several reasons!

1) I got an e-mail from a dear friend telling me he and his wife are willing to GIVE me their extra car! I have to go and get it (in Massachusetts), but I found a sweet CHEAP ticket on Southwest, so my total expenses in getting their will be $80. Praise the Lord!! AND the weekend I am going to get it (not this, but the following) is the weekend my friend is getting ordained! I am overjoyed that I will be able to attend and share such a special time with him and his family!
2) My wonderful suitemate from last year came to see me yesterday. She was in town for the day so we had a couple hours together to catch up and just enjoy being together again. We had a great time. She's just one of those people I've spent enough time with that we can go a while without seeing each other and pick right back up where we left off. What a blessing!
3) I got an e-mail from my Costa Rican friend Ana Luisa. She had her interview in the embassy and a tourist visa was granted to her!! YAAAAY!! Getting a visa, even a tourist one to the US is NOT easy right now. So, praise God she can come! I am hoping I'll get to see her and dreaming and praying my support will be in so I can go back to Costa Rica with her. (She is coming in January for a couple weeks). I'M SO EXCITED!!!!
4) I chatted with Rolando, my Pastor at my church in Costa Rica yesterday on Skype. I hadn't heard from him in a while, so it was great to get caught up on some stuff. He sent me a picture of what the church building looks like and a big, looooong document about the church, so I am looking forward to reading that and am thrilled that I can use the picture of the building in my presentation!
5) I also had the chance to chat with my dear friend Josue!! He is from Honduras, but his family has been living in Costa Rica for the last few years because of his Dad's work. I'll write more about the Viera family some day. They are some of the most amazing people I have ever met!!! Anyway, Josue and I had a spectacular conversation. We hadn't chatted in a long time, so it was great to catch up.
6) I made dinner for some friends of mine. I forgot to thaw the meat earlier in the day, but it all turned out just fine and was extremely yummy. All those years of helping Mommy in the kitchen are definitely paying off!! And we just had a lot of fun together. I was glad to give them a chance to get off campus.
7) I had a blast at IV and afterwards a friend said he would let me borrow his car! So, tomorrow I am going to go see Kiki (my adopted Cuban mom) and Janet (I guess she's my adopted Puerto Rican Mom)!! They both work for the Latin America Mission and are at a missions conference at Messiah College. So, I am going to drive to see them and hang out!!! That will be SO fun!!!
8) My prayer card went to the printing press and I should have them in about 10 business days!!

Needless to say, it was a VERY eventful, exciting day and I had a hard time winding down to go to bed. But, it gave me some stuff to think about. I know a lot of good things happen, and they're not always this big, but whether lots of good things are happening or not, I should maintain that same worshipful attitude towards God. It's easy to praise Him when he's poured blessings on me like Niagara Falls. But, even when I'm standing under a trickle, I want to (and need to) praise God. Things with Him aren't circumstantial. He is the SAME, Yesterday, Today, and Forever. So no matter what, He is still worthy and I want to praise Him just as if the blessings are coming like Niagara Falls.
The other thing I realized is that most, if not each thing I just listed up there came as an answer to prayer. I've been learning a lot about prayer and expectation (ie faith) and when I pray for things and believe they will come-they do!! That just encourages me all the more in regards to my support. If I look at is as something I have to do, it's impossible! But if I look at it as something God can do, I can know with every assurance that He can and WILL do it! With Him ALL things are possible! That doesn't mean I can just sit back and do nothing, but oh what a joy and peace it brings to know I can trust Him to provide and care for me!!

Monday, November 3, 2008

I Still Have No Job & A Blast From the Past

No Job
Yes, I still have no job. I am thinking I'm going to have to go back to the original plan of working in the cafeteria at Grove City College. I decided to not even bother interviewing for the position in Pittsburgh I mentioned in my last entry. I realized that there's just no way I can be gone for 11 hours a day and still expect to raise support to go to Costa Rica and survive. So, we'll see. But I'm guessing that may be what happens. There aren't many opportunities around here. That's for sure. All the Outlets may have all their seasonal help, but I may go investigate and pray that isn't the case. I have no retail experience, but if we're both desperate, I figure neither of us really cares.

Blast From the Past
On to the more fun part of things. When I was little there was this a capella special that we taped from PBS. It had Rockapella, Ladysmith Black Mambazo (which I called "The Pajama People" up until just recently), Take 6 and several other phenomenal a capella groups. I frequently requested to watch that video for the next several years.
When I was in high school I actually got to be in our a capella group for my last 3 years. It was SO great! We were quite good too. Now my Daddy is in an a capella group and I'm jealous of him (he was jealous of my music group in high school). My memory of the a capella video faded over the last few years and I didn't get to watch it since it is so old and worn. I thought it was lost forever. BUT the other day Daddy sent me the link to the first song of the program -and the WHOLE thing is on YouTube!!! Check out the Spike Lee & Co Do It A Capella program! It is such amazing music! And the early 90s garb that everyone (except Ladysmith Black Mambazo) wears is pretty sweet. :-) I have the best Daddy in the world!!!